MARCH 1, 2020
Signs
Triggered by a song playing in the background as we reorganized her garage. The gentle tapping of her tears hitting the ground, slowly absorbing into the cement as she bent over in complete grief, served as a heart-wrenching reminder that life will never again be the same. This week has come and gone but not without some major “feels”.
A project on Jon’s “to do list” that never came to fruition; reorganizing the garage has been a huge focus of my husband’s and has also been a part of his own grieving process. Only owning their house for 2 years while busy being a dad, husband, working, traveling for work, getting his MBA, being a brother, son, son-in-law, and friend; understandably so, Jon never got a chance to tackle this portion of his list. Sorting through Jon’s gear; snowboards, golf clubs, tools, those projects husbands say they’re going to get to but we all know they never will. A life once so certain but now, in what seems like an instant, forever lost.
We all have different beliefs but so many of us close to Jon have found ourselves looking to the sky in moments of heartache and despair. Desperate for some relief or just a cathartic deep breath. Some friends have reported seeing Jon’s initials in the sky or even formations resembling angels over Megan and Jon’s house. Others have been visited by giant black and yellow butterflies. Some friends have even dreamt of Jon with messages to Megan that he’s happy, he loves her and their boys, and that he’s so very proud of her. However you may personally categorize these incidents, it has certainly brought much-needed comfort to Megan.
Megan and the boys also recently decided to get a puppy; Hawkeye Joy Watson, an adorable black with gold flecks mini Golden-doodle. Her sweet, gentle, demure little soul naturally gravitates towards Megan. Even when feeling your worst, you can’t help but smile around her. If ever a dog was meant for a family, this sweet girl was meant for the Watsons.
A welcome visit started the weekend from Jon’s boss and his wife who were eager to meet the boys and spend time with Megan. Jon’s company has provided their own form of support and love for Megan by hosting dine-out fundraisers, providing Megan the use of a car and driver for transportation to and from the hospital, donating to this GoFundMe campaign, collecting donations here and abroad, buying close to 200 Watson Nation shirts (proceeds of which go directly to Megan) and, while Jon was in the hospital, being a regular reinforcement of strength for Megan during the grueling and hellish daily waiting room processes. The visit on Saturday served as as another reminder of what a supportive force Jon’s former employer is and continues to be throughout this entire process.
The week came to a close with a visit to the memorial services office where Megan turned in three drawings from Landon, Maddox, and Wyatt to Jon. In addition to their drawing, each one included a message for him to be kept with Jon forever. With Jon’s wedding ring dangling from a chain around her neck, tears streamed down Megan’s face as each page was folded up and put into an envelope. While driving to and from the office, through her sunglasses, Megan noticed a giant rainbow brilliantly spanning the entire sky. She described in detail the assortment of vibrant colors even filling the streets as we drove. Trying on her same sunglasses, I couldn’t see what she was describing. Clearly, this sign was meant for her, and only her. Because after all of the darkness this family has been through, they deserve to see that life can still be good. That while none of this will ever make any sense, life will fall into a new place. Happiness may be off in a far away distance, but happiness is still there. That love defies all reason, all logic, and all understanding.
We’re not ok right now, but someday we will be.
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